Self-Injection Video, 8 weeks

First one got cut off.. here another one just to catch up.

Week Seven

Everything is really starting to take a toll on me. School, work, transition.. all kinda hitting me right now. I need to take a break from something.

Five weeks on T

One month on Testosterone

4 weeks on testosterone

Many have been telling me that I am much more abrasive lately, and sarcastic. I am usually just joking around, but I have been taken the wrong way a lot lately. Just a lil something I don't think I mentioned in the video. Two days until one month!

Three Weeks on T

I forgot to mention it in the video.. but the fat redistribution is kicking in. I have noticed more.. scratch that.. I have noticed some fat on my belly. I have never had that before, but I am quite okay with it. :)

In other news, no dice on the getting a new id badge. My advisor doesn't believe that I actually have a problem with it, just with security. She doesn't really understand that having to wear a badge with my old name on it is humiliating. So I am not sure what is going to happen with that.

Just gonna vent for a minute..

Sometimes life is just unfair, I get that.

Yesterday a security guard at my school called me out for not wearing my ID. Out of my entire group of friends I was with, he took down my name and gave me an official warning. He was also the same security guard who started treating me different when I was having trouble breathing, and he learned that my ID did not say Drew. I am working with the school to get a new one with the first initial or something, because there is no way I am wearing a badge that has my given name. It is degrading, and I refuse.

Also, some of my friends decided to out me to their friends when they asked how we knew each other. I did not really think that was necessary. I did tell my friend that he was allowed to tell anyone he wanted really, because it saved me the trouble of telling people. But I think I should have been more specific. I meant only tell people that knew me previously, not to new people.

I am a very open person. I don't mind talking to people, especially if they have questions about me being transgender and all, but.. I don't think they need to hear what my given name was.

Lately I have been very touchy about people calling me by that name, and it makes me extremely uncomfortable. Almost everyone who I associate with calls me Drew, and I would like to keep it that way. I understand that people slip up, and thats fine. I get it. You just don't have to go around intentionally telling people the name I used have.

Okay, done venting for now. Just had to get that out there.